I have been thinking alot lately about my life in general. Some of those thoughts include my attitude towards some things, like love, friendship, and feeling.
My love life is complicated. It could be a mexican telenovela...been thinking that i should start asking guys out. In this society its the other way round. Tops (Guys that do bottoms) ask bottoms (the ones that get shagged by tops) out. I turned that rule around and asked a friend out. Oh yes i did... We havent set a date but its a start...i wish, hope and pray something comes out of it. When it happens. The action of me asking really fascinated me. I never thought i would...be capable of such. Im scared of rejection. But no, i wasnt turned down. Now to really plan. I really want it to happen. Im having this whole positive attitude thing going on. Lets see how long it lasts.
Without friendship i doubt humans would survive...i sat on a computer, logged into facebook and removed a whole lot of people who never talk or just irritate me. Or shallow ones. It got me thinking, why do some people bother? Your not a friend if you add me and stay silent your just a mere statistic on my friend list! It might be a bitchy thing to do, but honestly speaking quality over quantity matters. In other matters of friendship, i have noted selfishness what i thought used to be my closest friends. I will not say what, but it struck realization in me...it seems that i dont really have a best friend. I just have good, but not best friends. Another lesson learned.
Feeling. Emotional feelings are something im working on. Someone should write a book called ''how NOT to get hurt''. Sometimes people use what you feel against you. I wish i could see that when it happens to me. I suppose life is your book and you have to write in it. What you write is entirely yours. The thing is i cant not be emotional. I cant hide. Why? Its just me...part of who i am. As mentioned im still working out a solution. When i get one i shall write.
Finally, its a bloody shame to see Bantu Mwaura dead. How he died is just awful. Life taken away by another. What did he do? I dont think he deserved to go. Not like that. I know God has a plan for everyone but seriously is such a gruesome exit necessary? We have lost a great man in kenya. A lecturer, a poet, a husband, a father, a friend. A man of culture. May God rest his soul peacefully....and shame on those behind his demise.
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