June Draws to a close, how do you feel at this point in time?
I'm quite calm actually. I'm resting on my bed with my back against the wall and the laptop on my laps. There's a nice yellowish sunset that's lit up my room rather well, it feels airy. To my left there's doglet making herself comfortable, after unsuccessfully trying to jump onto my keyboard. To my right there's my notes for a test i have on Saturday, as well as the ipod which is plugged into a speaker set. First Train Home by Imogen Heap is playing.
Use five words to describe your first half of the year.
It could have been worse.
Are you where you want to be, 6 months later?
Well, I've hit a number of short term goals. Starting with celibacy. 6 months into it. I've got an internship so that sort of settles starting a career off? Except what I'm currently doing isn't very interesting. I'm about to finish my undergraduate programme as well, so that's on track as well. I've taken up tennis too. This whole "improving quality of life" thing seems to be helping.
Your social life?
My social life seems to have flatlined this year, from a very spiky one last year. I don't have as many friends, and after I got assaulted in April I noticed that I've become a little less the outdoors type and more of the indoors type, despite antics to continue being my usual party animal self. Indoors isn't such a bad place to be in! Wallet and Liver like that. I do however, miss my campus social life, and my girlfriends too.
That experience had an effect on you...
It really did. Physically I look fine, but mentally I'm still recovering. I was told repressing the issue into a dark corner of my mind won't help. Sometimes I can't sleep because I still get nightmares, or certain noises/smells trigger memories. Despite all this I'm trying my best to move on with life.
On to happier topics, MEN! What's going on in that area?
Christ, It's not so good. I've written about a guy called slim whom I've discovered has a lot of emotional baggage. I tried my best not to focus on finding a guy but some seem to have found me. Like the blonde who tried to tell me allegro's a piano composer. So far, I'm still on my own.
Come on, two good guys appear and you dismiss them...?
Have you ever been with a complete moron that tries to match up to you, has poor command of English grammar and Isn't genuine; OR one that's as emotional as a broken down woman on a Mexican telenovela? Honey of course I fled! Anyone would!
You clearly don't miss sex.
Sometimes, I look at the mirror and wonder why I quit. Then I remember that I'm after something that's more satisfying. At times I wonder whether I should just go back to that cycle of casual sex with a long term shag and just shut up. 6 months later one can find themselves in a confusing place.
Are things at home the same?
It's weird. That's the best term for it. It's calm and all, but i still feel there's an air of uneasiness whenever something "gay" comes up, be it the news or conversation between family.
There's still another half of the year to go, what do you expect from it?
I wanna graduate! That aside, anything that comes along will be dealt with then.
And your last remarks are...?
I want the Google Nexus 7 tablet. Also, Mail your guest post entry to cuppateaKE@gmail.com. Lastly, getting into bed to sleep is becoming my favourite part of the day.
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