So I pushed & pushed some more to meet at a place of my choice, halfway between our homes.. And it seemed like it was a battle of "who's going to have their way". I won. Its best to go to a neutral place when discussing serious issues. I dont go there, neither does he. Anyway we met (at bloody long last!) and sat.
I didn't even bother beating round the bush, I told him I'd get to the key points and he wont like it. Said he was prepared. Ok then, I started. I was very curious as to why he stood me up... He was caught up with things. Fine, I told him it upset me and that he ought to be more considerate. Then I started what became a small rant. He never attends or accompanies me to events I invite him to but expects me to go places with him all the time? There he said he's sorry and that he'll work on it (I hope he does). I also told him about the phone call issue. He said sorry.
I told him about using those 3 words all the time (you know them, those I love you phrases), I had to explain this to him, yes I feel strongly for him but not to the extent where I have to use those words. I just had to be honest with him on that one. Its still early in the relationship. Now, there he was shocked. Its like I told him someone died!
What a loud, awkward silence that followed.
Then the topic changed to my weekend trip that I might be going on. And then back to that subject. Oh boy. He loves me, he said it like 3 times. Im curious, how is it he loves me that deeply? I wonder what I did to deserve that from him. Im honoured but im worried. Then he said "whats the point/sense in loving someone who doesn't love you back?"
Shit i really didn't like where this was going... I told him that I had no intentions to leave him, I just didn't want to rush things... My feelings for him haven't changed since I met him. He seemed to calm down but I knew he was upset. Anyone would. Another awkward silence. So he's like he'll try and be a better person.. For some odd reason he thought i compared him to my exes. Well I did, the whole no show thing didn't jazz me..
So that being said we talked about other stuff like his crazy friends etc. Then we left, I had to go see T and fabulous m. I needed official pants to wear on Saturday night (to be explained later) and T offered to help... Do not ask me why I don't have official wear, I just dont.
The miraculous thing is the relationship is still intact. I thought he'd put up a fight or get upset and tell me to leave etc. But he didn't. Thank goodness! Now hopefully things will be better from here...
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