Lets start with how on friday none of my friends were available so i went to have coffee alone (friday coffee must be done) in westlands this time. But before that i had lunch with gothic. That was fun! Turns out every deacons store is having a sale! And then he has such a good looking cab driver (i kid you not) it was shocking! Later a friend of mine (straight) came over. I haven't seem him since 2008! We had a small chat before we left. Besides, i needed to get home to listen to some new albums i got...
I woke up on saturday morning so groggy! Waking up early to take the diplomatic one shopping at gikomba. It was MUDDY!! As in runny wet muddy mud! Though the place is interesting! You will find RANDOM stuff! Like he got 3 leather bags! I got one. And a prada briefcase/shoulderbag hybrid. Its the real deal. I just couldn't leave it behind! Its the kind you think 'what if'. Anyway i'm pleased with it. Successful shopping trip? Yes.
Later i met him. Yes, sir laugh-alot's ex. I met him when i was still with diplomatic one. We went to have lunch. I ate. Again, he didn't. I FELT FAT! Goodness if you saw the amount of food on my plate... I didn't finish on purpose. It just felt SO AWKWARD! The good thing is that he wasn't shy around diplomatic s. Later after diplomatic one left, we went for an hour of drinks. One random restaurant later i remembered i had a little paper valentines card thingie of sorts that i'd made when i was in a dull class just for him. It was in the book i'm currently reading. ''comment on it later please'' i said. I felt so silly giving him the card... But he seemed pleased with it. F came later on, we all sat and chaaaaated until....
...a girl sitting alone at a table was staring at us. Superman noticed. (oh oh) and they exchanged looks. Now i'm aware he's bisexual. Ish. I think he's still determining his sexuality. I am scared of bisexuals. Why? Because one left me for a woman. Long story. Anyway it felt wierd... We were leaving when he went to her table to talk for a few minutes while i waited outside. He tells me later he didn't take her number... Hmmm... I wasn't upset more like amused! He's brave to do that. Then again i guess he's used to it. Should i be bothered? I like him. But really?
I went to big s (s with a new title because many friends who's names start with s) to visit afterwards... He's good. A and T were there. T with his strange moods continued. I won't ask. I went home after that to rest. Somehow people were going out and i wasn't told. I don't really care, the sleep i got was SO GOOD! Lately sleep has been yummy! By the way, My sister took the other bag because she loved it soooo much! I couldn't say no. So looks like i'll be getting another bag soon...
And then i wake up on sunday morning and i remembered i have two exams this week! Shit! I totally needed to read... So it meant skipping lunch at big p's... And i would've been awful company. I was incredibly moody. Why? I'm not sure.. Ok i might be upset with T but i'll just let it slide.
Ok i'll stop here and see how the week goes...
|blah blah blah-Ke$ha ft 30h!3|
There are various version of where the wedding of two gay men rumor started and there is still need to investigate where the rumor started. There is even a suggestion that it was a planted story.
- Government should be ashamed of itself for allowing gay men to marry while it is against the law
- Warned the owner of a building in the town who was allegedly renting rooms to homosexuals to evict them or face their wrath ( Note: this we believe is a safe house for gay men in town)
- They demanded that a government public institution in the town be investigated for allegedly providing medical services to homosexual. "How can a state institution be involved on the pretext of providing counseling services to these criminals".
After Friday prayers mobs of individuals went to homes of suspected homosexuals looking for them. For the most part the largest mob stayed put at the police station (from 10:00am to about 4pm). A number of religious and political leaders took the opportunity to speak to the crowd. Sheikh Ali Hussein's speech was inciting and he kept talking about Sodom and Gomorrah and the need to root all homosexuals from the Mtwapa area.
The media presentation on the front pages of Saturday papers (Daily Nation, Taifa Leo) only raised the tension in the community.
2. This attack on homosexuals seems to be an organized affair by a few religious leaders and there is need to find out who they are and what the agenda is. They seem to be well funded and the police seem to be working
with them when it comes to arresting and breaking into people homes.
3. KHRC has identified a lawyer who has been incredible in her engagement with the police and the religious leaders.
4. The LGBT activists on the ground have been amazing and have done incredible work to save their communities from attack. There is however concern even for their safety.
5. A Court date for their hearings is set for Monday morning
6. There is a planned large demonstration by the religious leaders tomorrow (Monday 15th) either at the court or at the police station.
7. As many gay networks in Mtwapa have been reached out to and people instructed to leave the area for awhile ( this is a decision taken by the two LGBTI groups in the area). Some members have already gone into hiding in other parts of the coast.
8. There is great concern for HIV positive MSM members who access care and treatment at Kemri. Because of the disruption many will not and have not accessed their meds for days and that has serious health implications for them.
1. The Gay and Lesbian Coalition of Kenya, GALCK and other partners are presently strategizing next steps including looking at what possible actions need to be taken on the breaches of law that we have witnessed this past weekend ( inciting communities to attack members of their communities, media write-ups and hate speech etc). This includes pressing charges against the two religious leaders and the former MP for inciting the community to commit crime.
2. KHRC lawyer is on the ground and is truly very engaged in all that is going on.
at the coast. GALCK and KHRC should provide us with recommendations of what actions we as a community can take to support our colleagues.
OH! MY! GOODNESS! AH AH! how could i have let this one slip by?? Yesterday was my blog's 1st birthday and i TOTALLY forgot! (blame cost accounting) In my defence i had a long day and i genuinely forgot... By the way it was tamaku's anniversary as well which means tamaku and i started blogs a few hours apart... Interesting...
I was such a disgruntled person when i started it.. Was specifically upset with society, and facebook, and myself! I'd left a guy(that bastard!) the previous day after he went and made out with someone else in my presence...ANYHOO it was a milestone for me because it helped me unwind. Writing is my ventilation method...it was that or screaming into pillows! (i kid you not) it also keeps me abit busy.
Through this blog i've spoken to some VERY interesting people. Met two. I've had interesting arguments with fellow bloggers (read GNM, haiku, and pater when he was around) of which they (mostly) emerged correct! I'm still open for forum btw. I might have educated some of the readers as well... Ok, my swearing and cursing might have gone down abit over the months, but i still express myself freely without people's stupid opinions on what they feel. My space. My words. My feelings. So there! :p
will i treat myself to something? Hmmm... I wish i could! I'll get me a slice of cake. Thats as far as i'll go because of ''bei ya mwanafunzi''.... (student pricing=always broke) and or student allowances. I do like art caffe's cheese cake and art ice hihi...
So thank you my little audience, for bearing my angsts and neuroses and haphazard feelings in literature here, thanks for pushing me to write and thank you for advising me in funny funny situations...even though i DON'T look for drama, it finds me! Anyhoo, i just wanna say a big Merci, asante, and thank you. Lets do for another year shall we?
With love, a most sincere cuppatea
It was A's birthday saturday, and what better way to help him celebrate than to have a small get together? Diplomatic one, big p, k, dyke g, T, fabulous m, sir j, gothic and A's Friend j were there. Myself included. Electricity vanished somewhere along the festivities...so candle lit pizza dinner with cake and wine and sheer laughter ensued! My goodness it was fun! I slept at 2am...after having a whole six pack of half litre beer cans and lord knows how many glasses of wine... This guy had to go and sleep...
...Where he woke up the next day, valentines day, with a splitting headache!! Hangover? Yes. A bad one. And i was hungry too.... I find diplomatic s sleeping next to me and gothic on the far end of the bed. Wow. I went looking for water and painkillers...no painkillers found. Sniff sniff? What was that smell? Someone projectiled/regurgitated/vomited/puked/threw up innards! And this time it soooo wasn't me... Big p and fabulous m were sleeping on couches. Found water and went back to sleep. Later when people woke up, i made sufuria tea (tea in a pot) for everyone then we sat and continued chatting. That hangover was EPIC! By lunchtime we were hungry and spec d appeared. I made sausages whilst we decided what to have for lunch. Sausages are the best thing for a hangie! With bread. And tea. Spec d's famous chicken would be had for lunch whilst i sat down on the couch. There was no electricity the whole day! We improvised with T's speaker ball thingie and my playlists... I had to go home at 5pm lest i start being called... But generally that was a cool weekend...
I'm so lucky my home was slightly empty, i wanted my bed! I didn't even eat dinner (too tired/full) but i did shower and change my playlist for the week... Before i slept i really thought about myself, love life and other blah blah blahs... I really don't know where my love life is headed! I'll just go with the flow... By the way, ever wondered why cupid's army still uses arrows instead of modern day weapons like a tactical shot-gun? Hmmm....
|we froze and nobody knows---->living a lie- the dream ft Rihanna|
He'd wanted to see me but something came up, so i'm not going for theatre date this valentines day. I'm sad yes, but really its not like we're dating... So once again i'm alone on valentines day... Last year i wore black. The Bastard i nearly dated, infact i was going to tell him 'i accept your offer of being my boyfriend' that valentines day, decided he's making out with someone else infront of my friends and i at my buddy's leaving dinner. I promptly wore black the next day.
I'm on my bed listening to music. I have a nearly dead discman(its almost 10 years old) and a stack of cd's to listen to tonight. No reading. No movies or series (finished sex and the city season 3), just music.
I don't feel like doing anything else...
''Why do i behave the way i do?'' This is a question i was asked recently by some random queen friend of mine. ''you look straight but you're not, how come you don't wear tights to show off your arse? You're so dull!'' he asked. Silly boy! I'm happy with how i dress! Why are you hating on me? Shindwe!
I gave up years ago in high school pretending to be heterosexual when clearly i'm not! Not that i'm outta the closet (hanging on the open doors of the closet perhaps?) but any person with intellect can tell i'm queer despite how i dress. Yes its quite normal, no tights or tank tops. Just normal wear! And by normal i mean khakis and polo shirts or shorts and a tee... So the way i behave around my queer friends is how i behave around heterosexual people.
And you know what?
They really don't care. Or if they do, at least they have the courtesy to respect me and let me be. They don't question my behaviour. When they do i just reply ''i'm just a positive minded person!'' (i try to be) Is it the society i'm in or? Hmmm no... I'm in a campus that has people from all walks of life and they don't seem bothered. Catholic church clergy included. If they are then they aren't saying it in front of me. My point is this, as long as i'm not screaming in people's faces about my being queer (wearing funny clothes, jewellery and/or make up) they really don't have issues with it! At least from my experience so far... Unlike you lot who go clubbing, get beaten by bouncers, threatened by women, insulted by bus/ matatu conductors etc etc... Your attitudes and mannerisms irritate people, even your conservative queer people can't handle y'all anymore!
Yes, there are homophobes who throw really dirty comments towards all classes of queer people. What do i do? Ignore them! Or taunt them back when i'm in the mood. But note this, less hater comments are thrown at you when you dress sensibly! Being queer isn't a choice but living like one kinda is. You make decisions to go out there to purchase those stuff and flaunt them! You DON'T make the decision to be queer though! Fine, if you're a queen and you feel more pretty in effeminate wear do as you please. Wear hot pants. Apply lip gloss. Really do anything you want, but Some of us are comfy and happy the way we are... in normal everyday, casual wear! Please don't judge me and others because we're bottom and we don't dress up girly. Its just mean... so stop bullshitting others with snide comments! You lot don't want to know whats said behind your backs... Wangare Maathai dresses better even.
Oh and by the way queens, you ACTUALLY move places IN society when you conform WITH society just a little bit... Not every queen is bad or evil or mean, there's a small percentage who're ACTUALLY nice! Though I'm not even sorry that i'm posting this! TONE DOWN WITH YOUR ATTITUDES!
|back to black-Amy Winehouse|
On Monday I took my schoolmate s for a blind date. That blind date asked him for booty! (what?) "I'm not a common prostitute for you to call, meet and expect me to bend for you!" said s. Oh, I was his backup. Incase anything happens im a heartbeat away. So this foolish guy swallowed. And went. We went to biiiiiiitch about it then we laughed! University is an interesting place. How they got his number I don't know...
Friday! I was looking forward to meeting fabulous m with small p and m for coffee... Sir laugh-alots boyfriend wanted to join! (shock!) so i'd invited him to come. It rained again. It rained on him. He walked into the coffee house. He looked so sexy! (sigh...) he sat. Naturally fabulous m analyzed him. I know he's shy when people he's not familiar with are around. His buddy was coming over as well. So we all chatted, f coming around as well... Because I was going for dinner with my sister and emo i had to leave early. He (nani's boyfriend) wanted to see me the next day. Agreed! Dinner went well, we went to this lovely Chinese restaurant in lavington. It would be in this restaurant where i'd see emo for the last time in a loooong while. The land of kangaroos awaits him. I will miss him. Alot. And then my sis and her friend mention some straight guy's houseparty. Mind you I had to be up at 6am to go for some I.t conference at westgate the next day. The party was SO BORING! The host was cute-ish. The rest were pot heads. Magic moments lemon remix did keep me company though. And the Osborne's. And engen is the only fuel station thats actually open all day and night. Got home at 2am...
Saturday Hangover! Shit I woke up 6am and my head... Do not mix magic moments and viceroy! BAD! I dressed and went. I got to the conference at 8 something. I was the first one there. And the youngest. It was about Twitter. It was fun! Made new friends... It ended at midday. Afterward, I went to meet him (nani's boyfriend still) for lunch. In town. I ate and he didn't. Which made me feel fat. He said he was meeting sir laugh-alot that afternoon. Apparently to talk. From the way he said it, this was not going to be an ordinary talk. "I'm leaving him. he's not expecting it." he said.
OH MY GOODNESS!
I left after lunch was had. I did NOT want to be in the vicinity of sir laugh-alot. Too bad he saw me. Luckily I was on my way out with a friend. who'd appeared two minutes earlier. I even went home after taking my friend shopping! All these thoughts were in my head... Big p was ill that week so I went to visit him... Then I went home, ate and slept. I'm still curious as to what happened between sir laugh-alot and the boyfriend...
Did they end things?
|you're half a world away, but in my mind I whisper every single word you say--->ocean lab-satellite|
Friday saw me taking emo and fabulous s shopping. Emo leaves Kenya on Saturday. Emo needs random clothes. Gikomba? Yes. I dressed down. They didn't. The result? I felt soooo unattractive! That feeling lasted the whole damn day because its friday, its end-month and people have cash! Except me. I survived on 200 bob! (cheer for me now, that was painful seeing people spend 10k, and me not buying shit) Even small p and F looked amazing at friday coffee! I got home and slept...
Saturday was my sister's birthday. At her dinner, she had a water gun! Which landed in some random girls hands who chased me...until i FELL. Oh. My. Goodness. I fell down and slid like a penguin on ice! Needless to say she shot me. I limped back to the table... I have a really bruised arm, a bruised waist, and two bruised knees! Oh and a cut hand! And i was going out that night! Ouch! They still hurt! 4 bandages later i was at gypsies. For the first time. Ever. Big p, A, T, fabulous m, spec d, diplomatic one, and sir j were the group i was in. At first i was sceptical about the place, then i had fun after a few beers. That dancefloor was packed! Good fun! And then some Asian fellow wanted to take me home! Ati nini? NO! He was a ''D.I.N.O.S.A--you are a dinosaur!'' (listen to dinosaur by kesha, fun song!) he didn't even ask politely... Oh, old flame and his boyfriend were there. I have no problem with them! They look awesome together, both being tall and all... My goodness i'm so friendly hehe... Got home at 4 am. I was dropped at my estate's main gate. The watchmen were having a little bonfire. My high little self had a whole 5 minute conversation with them! ''leo ni kuruka fence'' which translates to ''i'm going to jump over the fence''. Did i? HELL NO, that fence is tall! I dialled-an-ayah...
Sunday! No electricity thanks to those wankers at kenya power and lighting company. More like kenya parafin and candles... Arses! I woke up with a glowing hoop on my arm. Its bright green. Where did it come from? Hmmm.... I slept the whole morning. Hangover? Yes. Rocky mountains, cosmo's,malts and lord knows what else i had are/were damaging...headache...oh and pains from them bruises... Emo came to spend the afternoon. Chaaaaatted till he left. Then i slept again...elec came back at 9pm! Shindwe! I ate and slept.
Now its February. Valentines day is around the corner. So are spec d's and A's birthdays. I think i have a date with someone's boyfriend as well... Hmmm... Anyhoo y'all have a great month! I don't want to know what this month will be like... OH, my marketing lecturer has a red bmw bike. I just saw him riding it into campus! That is random. Very random...
|air traffic-owl city|
The play was about all the drama thats happened to kenya in the month of January. And late december. Oh yeah, the first gay scene is when a neighbour comes who's a TOTAL queen ( a queen is the girliest, most feminine kind of gay person) to talk to a girl about this philipino soap called ''storm over paradise''. That series is loved by mothers, daughters, ayahs and queens. It was rather hilarious! And theeeen there was the dating scene where there were couples in a restaurant, gay one included. In that scene, they were in the middle of dinner then a robbery happens! After the robbery the gay couple leave, the passive one saying 'screw this, we're going to get married in the uk!', which means that they were depicting those two kenyan guys in London... Wow.
At least we're being acknowledged in theatre...its a step for gays in society. Now if people would only stop pretending to be straight and some unity in the gay community happened... By the way i'm totally attending their next play!