So as i was writing yesterday's post, spec d calls me. "how're you?" he asks. "i'm good, just lounging..." i tell him. "Are you ok after saturday?" he asks... "the hangovers definately gone" i say. "No i mean after what happened on saturday, are the guys still mad at me?" asks spec d.
"i dont know, spec d what happened? Whatever you did has them totally upset with you." i said.
"umm, they found me in the room with my pants and belt undone and your boyfriend has no clothes on, the door was locked and i really cant remember anything but you lectured me and forgave me so yeeeah...." he said.
"hello?" he asks.
"you were found in a room with my boyfriend???" i asked. I think i yelled that statement because my sister heard...
"can i call you back?" i ask. I was in shock. I just couldn't believe it! I called T.
"hi, sorry to wake you up but just got a call from spec d saying that you guys found him with superman naked or something?" my voice was shaking i remember..
"ummm, can you come over? We need to talk." T says. "ill be there in 15mins" i said.
I didn't even wash my face or have tea i literally ran to T's place. Over there, we made tea and then we sat.
"has he told you anything? Superman that is?" T asks. "no...he hasn't..." i say. "oh". Said he.
he went on to explain that spec d was correct. Shit. I just sat there, unexpressionless. You know the thing with spec d is that he's an experienced drinker, when he's high he'll know what he's doing regardless of what he drinks... Superman i'm told was totally plastered... Sigh. So i thanked T for his time and went home, i had enough laundry to do.
I doubt ill ever wash clothes like that again... So much anger and hurt! But i thought about it in the process. People do stupid things when they're drunk. Or so they say. I'd asked superman after that visit to T's place, what happened?. "we need to talk" he said. I live on one side of the city and he on the other. The quickest way? Instant messaging. We talked for an hour... To cut a long conversation short, superman said he couldnt remember how he got into the room but he's very sorry about all this. (yeah either spec d or superman is lying, damn.) i can't prove anything! And i really REALLY like superman.
what to do?
I went to spend the afternoon at S's place... I told him about it. He's like "if you really like him stay but how do you know it wont happen again?" i don't know...
I went home, had dinner then folded all my clothes. I met superman on the I.M again. Here he told me he'd been feeling so down and he's sorry all this happened. He said it doesn't change how he feels about me... I told him i just want us to go back to being happy...
So thats that, i'm going to be man enough to put this incident behind me and just move on.
|come in with the rain- Taylor Swift|